True Confessions

I tend to dawdle some mornings.  I like the mornings when I’ve written my post the previous afternoon, scheduled it for a 3 am posting (no, I’m not up at 3 am…well sometimes, I am.)  and it magically appears in its published form when I turn on the computer.  In fact the 3 am days are some of the most dawdly…is that a word?  Well it is today.

When I first started writing BCDC, I had no idea I could schedule my posts.  Once again, I have to thank my sweet friend Kristen from verbs and vignettes for teaching me about that.  It’s come in really handy many times when there’s been something I have to do early in the morning and won’t be able to post.  It’s especially helpful when we’re traveling.  We need to get on the road early and if I’ve handled my post the previous evening, I’m set and we can get on our way.

It’s helpful when I have an amazing idea for a post and don’t want to wait.  I can write it up then and there and I lose none of my spontaneity.  Of course, how many times does THAT actually happen?!?  Sometimes…I won’t be too hard on myself, it happens sometimes.  Not often enough.

I want the things that I write here to be clever and insightful.  Yes, I started out wanting this to be a healthy living blog, talking about food choices, my adventures as a Weight Watchers Lifetime Member working to stay below goal and showing pretty pictures of what I eat.  As time goes on, I realize that my food’s not all that pretty in spite of my efforts.  I long for the time when we’ll be in our house in New Mexico and I can actually do pretty photos of pretty food because I’ll have room for it, not just the tiny corner of my kitchen counter as it has to be right now.  But I’ll get there, I have faith, and when I do get there I’ll dazzle you with my culinary brilliance.

In the meantime, I struggle with many things.  Although I do amaze myself that I have been writing BCDC for over 2 years now, rarely missing a day, I wonder if my efforts are worth it.  I know I have many loyal readers and I can’t show you my appreciation in enough ways.  I can’t believe how many of you read and comment each day. You are a gift to me.  I also appreciate the support of so many friends and family.

I have to equate it to when I was a Weight Watchers leader.  On average I lead 4 meetings a week in the evening after working a full-time job each day.  I would pick up extra classes from time to time when other leaders asked me to sub for them.  At one point, I was doing 5 classes at night and a Saturday morning class. It was hard but I loved it.  I’ve mentioned before I how much I miss leading the meetings.

My point here is that I approached my meetings as if I was a stand up comedian.  I felt I was there to entertain while throwing in some very important information.  One time someone I went to college with asked how I thought I was putting my Speech and Theatre degree to use in my everyday life.  Without hesitation, I stated that I did it every night in my meetings.

But the thing is that although I was following a set topic and doing basically the same lecture each meeting, some nights I was on and sometimes I wasn’t.  I initially would wait for people to laugh in the places where they had laughed the night before.  Many times, the laugh wouldn’t come.  So I learned to just plunge ahead to the next opportunity.

In blogging and in life, you never know what’s going to work.  Some days I feel that I’m rambling incoherently in my posts and sometimes those are the ones that grab your attention the most.  This is not a shameless attempt to grab your attention, just an honest attempt to share my feelings.

I think what I’m trying to say is that I appreciate you reading and I will keep writing.  Again, amazing myself that I not only do this every day, but I actually Get to do it!

Happy Thursday!  It’s windy out, but it’s sunny…I’ll focus on the Sunny!!

 

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18 responses to “True Confessions

  1. I hate to keep repeating myself like an old person, but you are awesome, no matter what you think of yourself. Nothing has made me happier than seeing you write your blog. I know that I don’t always comment but if it isn’t in my email when I put the computor on at 6 I get very cranky. So, keep up the good work, you are an inspiration to all of us!

  2. I can’t express how much joy your blog brings to my heart.I look forward to reading each each and every day…xoxoxoxo Bettysue

  3. I’m glad to hear (I mean read) that you’re going to continue to blog! I always love stopping by your blog. 🙂 ❤

  4. I love that you manage to blog daily! It’s always a goal of mine–but if I actually hit 3 days a week, it’s a good week. I sometimes feel like I write posts just to post something, and then other weeks I have too many ideas to fit in. I could probably work on that scheduling bit…

    Anyway, glad you’re here and posting! Your blog is one of my faves!

    • Allie, thank you so much for your support. I think of you as the wild child (at least in the hair department) and the girl who’s not afraid to try something that’s hiding inside of me and afraid to come out. Thanks for being adventurous for me.

  5. I’m very impressed that you blog everyday. I can’t seem to do it. Well, I did during NaNoBloMo but it was SO hard!

  6. Fran, I love your blog! I love your honesty! I love how open you are about your successes and struggles 🙂 Keep on blogging!

  7. fran, i have to say that i love the days where you do the 3 a.m. scheduling of that day’s blog post because i LOVE starting my day with our *chat!* yes, i do!
    i totally understand re the blogs that attract the comments are not always the ones we think they will be, or the ones that we spend the most time on – so funny!
    i bet you were a great and much appreciated ww leader!
    i hope you had a good thursDAY and enjoy a lovely thursEVE! i am off to hot yoga after a day in the store!

    • Thanks, Cathy, what a nice thing to say. It’s funny, I always seem to know when I see the first message of the day that I have a comment, that it will most likely be you! It does feel like chatting and I appreciate you being there to listen. I loved being a WW leader. The process has changed so much, I keep thinking about it, but haven’t made the move to actually going back for the training. We’ll see. Have a wonderful day, my dear!

  8. This is how I feel about writing. I’ve never had a large following like most of the blogs I read, but the ones who stop by and comment make my day every time. And you are definitely one of those people. Plus, I love your ramblings! They are so genuine and real. It’s like listening to a friend over coffee (or tea for me) every morning. 🙂

    • That’s so sweet of you to say, Katy! I’m not likely to ever have a HUge following, but I so much enjoy interacting with my new friends through blogging or “blends” as I’ve heard them called. So glad you’re here with all of us!

  9. I enjoy your blog and was so happy to have found it during the A to Z Challenge! 🙂

    • Thanks, Dana! I enjoy yours as well, although I’ve been behind on my reading of some of my favorite blogs. I’ve been thinking about the A to Z. Will you be participating this year? I think I will, I’m trying to come up with a theme. I just flew by the seat of my pants last year!

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